Thursday, 27 March 2014

Lição do dia

Todas as pessoas que passam na nossa vida, por piores que sejam, têm algo para nos ensinar. Deixam uma marca, seja ela de que natureza fôr, impactam-nos. Hoje aprendi, e espero ter interiorizado várias coisas. A primeira é que, por mais que tente ser aberta e aceitar toda a gente, independentemente da sua natureza, vá, chamemos-lhe "inconvencional", não dá. No more crazies in mah life. A segunda foi, a deixar para trás ressentimentos, porque a vida é uma jornada em que, quase sempre, valores mais altos se impõem. A terceira e mais difícil de aceitar, é que o passado já lá vai, e há que o deixar repousar. Por mais que queiramos às vezes, recuperar coisas que foram muito boas, mas que por qualquer razão azedaram, isso não resulta. É uma analogia algo idiótica, mas é exactamente como a comida. Trabalhámos para a comprar, azedou, temos pena, mas há que a deitar fora e não pensar mais nisso. Ninguém iria ao lixo buscar comida estragada para comer, por mais que gostasse do seu sabor, e o mesmo se deve passar com as relações e eventos na vida. Tenho dito, e a partir de hoje, feito (espero).

 Zombina Von Mexiko, 27/03/14

Saturday, 1 February 2014

Past Adventures - Road trip to Bratislava

Hello Ghouls and Ghoulettes!

Yesterday I was browsing through some past pictures (believe me, there are many!) and I decided it would be fun to open a new theme in the blog. So from now on, I´ll be sharing some of my most interesting past adventures with you! I´m kind of a traveller, a citizen of the world, of sorts. I´ve lived in Wales, England, Portugal, Spain and Austria. Additionally, I've travelled to Germany (twice), France, Slovakia, Hungary and Czech Republic (twice), plus the Azores (beautiful portuguese islands in the Atlantic Ocean).  I even went to the african continent once, I travelled with my parents to Ceuta from Spain (you can get a boat there) and spent a day there, though I´m not sure if that counts as leaving Europe. I love, love, LOVE to travel! In the future, I really want to travel all over Europe (specially go to Ireland and Scotland), The USA, Mexico (dia de los muertos <3), Egypt and Japan. Anyway, on the the point. In this theme I´ll be sharing all kinds of adventures from the past, no matter how old. Travels, days out with friends, festival outings, everything! I´ll create a special tag for it, so if you're interested, always feel free to check the "Past Adventures" tag, and come share my frockings with me! I plan to post soon many of my trips within the UK, my trip to wave gotik treffen, my trip to Disneyland Paris, several trips from while I was in Austria... Stay tunned!

I´ll start with a roadtrip I made with some friends to Bratislava, the capital of Slovakia. Come and wander with me, after the cut!

Devin Castle, Bratislava.

Tuesday, 14 January 2014

When you let go of the negativity, negativity let's you go!

Casa do Fauno, Halloween, 2013

My dearies,

It is 4:00 am, I´m watching "The Carrie Diaries" (amazing show btw. If you love sex and the city - And how could you not? - go watch it, now!), and a light-bulb just popped in my head. For the last 4 months I've felt like the shittiest piece of shit that ever existed. Why? Because I had to let go/lost one of my closest friends, who I still miss and hope to get back in touch with to this day. Because I had problems with the family of somebody who is very dear to me. Because I started to doubt myself. Because I had more problems, and it all escalated to a HUGE snowball.

For days on end I cried. I felt like my world was about to collapse, like a huge black hole was created within me, and eating away at my soul. Because no matter how happy I felt, there always came a time where my thoughts came back to haunt me, and my mood would drop. And it was horrible, because no matter how good I felt at a certain moment, a black cloud was always hovering over me.

And then it stopped. Why?

Because I decided to make it stop. I decided to let go of the bad, and focus on the good. In previous years I was very much in touch with my spiritual side, but somehow that part of me got lost in the mayhem that life is. Well, I decided to reconnect. With mother nature, with the good energies of the earth, with me. I decided to stop worrying, and actually try to accomplish something. I got back to writing, and what a joy it has been! It's like being back in touch with an old friend, who helps you to understand yourself, and makes you feel self-fulfilled and proud. I decided to try to focus on the good, instead of the bad. I have a big problem with anxiety, that sometimes impairs me greatly. When I feel good, I can kinda control it, but if i´m in a bad place, it completely takes over me. Whenever bad thoughts come to me now, I try to reflect on them, and turn them into something positive. Or if i can't, I feel what I have to feel, experience what I have to experience, and then try to let go. I cannot hold back my thoughts, try as I may. There's people who don't think at all (and not being ungrateful but boy, do I envy them sometimes!) but that is simply not me. I think, I think a lot. As a matter of fact, I think i´m pretty much always thinking, planning, idealising, imagining, anticipating, revising and so on. The only exception is perhaps when i´m with people that I love (that's another thing I cannot deny about me - I´m a social butterfly, and although sometimes I hate that about myself, I thrive amidst people), doing stuff that makes me simply happy. Nothing too fancy - A walk somewhere pretty, a night out with good music, a good chat with friends and some booze...

Like cat stevens sings (I came across this song in the film Harold and Maude, which I deeply deeply recommend. A great life lesson, and so beautiful!)

Well, if you want to sing out, sing out
And if you want to be free, be free
'Cause there's a million things to be
You know that there are

And if you want to live high, live high
And if you want to live low, live low
'Cause there's a million ways to go
You know that there are

If you're feeling down, trying to tune in with something that makes you feel good. I realized I was creating so much negativity just by thinking about things that hurt and felt bad... My natural answer to them was hate, sorrow, bad feelings, negativity. When I should be focusing on the things that make me happy! Cmon, try it now! What makes you feel good? What helps you focusing on the good and shunning away bad energies?

Burn some incense, gather some protective crystals, put some music on! Draw if that makes you feel free and accomplished! Read books, watch films! Fill your mind up with fantasy, mythical creatures, faraway worlds, whatever works for you! If maths is your thing, go and work on some exercises! If you like to run, go for a jog, run as fast as you can, run with all your might and leave all the bad stuff behind!

This was a completely spur of the moment post, but it might well be one of my favourites ever. It marks the new cycle that has already begun, and boy, does it feel good!

I end this post with another recommendation, a book that changed the way I thought about life years ago, and that's the philosophy i´m hoping to reconnect with. Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom. I will not write anything about it, as I would like to let you experience it by yourself and come to your own conclusions, but I leave you with a quote:

“If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your heard even, you experience them fully and completely.”

Be happy. Seize the day. "O mais é nada!" 

Sunday, 12 January 2014

A weekend by the sea, and a daily outfit with flowers

Hello my darling creatures,

Trying to get back to blogging, I decided to share with you all my very special day, the day me and my <3 had our one year anniversary. It seems like only yesterday that we have met, but alas, a year has gone by. And mind you, it wasn't easy. We spent 5 months apart from each other, me in Vienna (Austria) and him in Lisbon (Portugal, my home country). But true love never dies, as all of us good goths have learned in Bram Stocker's Dracula, hur hur hur. I knew after I spent my first week with him as boyfriend and girlfriend that he was the one, and so it has been. And let me tell you, it is wonderful to spend my life side by side with a man that showers me with love, friendship and understanding in a daily basis. So come and spend our special weekend with us!

Instead of splurging in a super fancy dinner, we were fortunate enough to be given two nights in a seaside hotel in Estoril, with an amazing view over the beach and the marginal. The night started with us swapping our xmas and 1 year anniversary gifts, as pictured above.

And in our opinion, a fancy dinner is NOTHING compared with HUUUGE amounts of pizza, and a good film, curling up in the hotel bed! In this occasion, because we were still super in tune with our xmas spirit, we decided to watch the Grinch!

Then it was time to celebrate, with cheap ass champagne and some time spent contemplating the view :)

And what an amazing view it was! I spent loads of time by the window, just taking it all in.

And this was the view from the other side, where we were fortunate enough to have one of the few balconies of the hotel!

After breakfast, we decided to go for a walk and spend the day in Cascais. We packed some sandwiches and leftover pizza, and headed down the "paredão".

My Titanic pose

And me, being silly with my super cute hello kitty coat. It makes me feel like a super badass 6 year old, I love it! Especially when I pair it with super alternative attire! ahah

At first it was quite a cold, cloudy day, but then the sun decided to come out and say hi!

The day ended with a romantic ride on the ferris wheel by the sea, or the cascais eye, as I named it.

This was my outfit for the day! One of of my favourite skirts, paired with two of my new favourites: A very 90s witchy bag I got from a trade, and a pair of chunky boots I got on my personal couture boutique (feira da ladra) for one euro!

Skirt - Zara
Skulls Jumper - Austria
Witchy Red Moon Bag - Trade
Hello Kitty Fluffly Coat - Primark
Chunky boats - Feira da ladra

I hope you enjoyed sharing my special day! See you soon, batty bats!

Monday, 6 January 2014

Happy news

Hello my dearies,

Throughout my life, writting was always my preferred mean of expression. I used to write a lot of poetic prose, poetry, satiric texts, unfinished novels... One day somebody said something mean about one story I was working on, and it broke me will. I have a kind of fragile self-esteem, and I over think too much. As a teenager, I won a couple of important publisher 1º prizes with my short stories, and was even published in my high school poetic anthology. My dream was to be a writer. I kind of stopped writting to expurgate my inner devils for a long amount of time, because life got in the way (that seems to be my excuse to stop doing things that were important for me in the past, but maybe I´m just lazy). In university my academical writting improved, and I was always good at it, but I mostly stopped writting for fun.

Lately I've been working a lot in trying to change the way I experience life. I'm trying to dwell in positive energies, crystals, paganism and ways in which to let the bad stuff out and the good stuff in. I also decided that it was time I started fighting for myself again, trying to accomplish some goals, and actually doing something with my life.

I am very proud to say that I´ve fought for my goal to get back to writting, and trying to do it in a semi-professional manner, and I´m now a writer for Metal Imperium zine! You can read my first published piece of news in this link (portuguese only, I´m afraid) and like the facebook page if you're interested in metal news, reviews, contests, interviews, etc. It is currently liked by 14.810 people on facebook, which is kind of a big deal. I feel very grateful for this opportunity, and I hope it acts as a means to resuscitate me so that I keep fighting for my goals.

And for those of you who might be reading this and feeling some kind of negative emotion, please don't. Remember that you get what you give, and please try to be happy for me. Even if we had some kind of beef in the past, remember the happy moments and memories, and try to keep an open heart. Maybe me if we both do, we can reconnect in the future, and recover whatever was lost. Remember that life is a journey, and we should let go of the bad, forgive and try to do whatever makes us happy.

Goodbye kind of blah last half of 2013! May 2014 be full of joys, laughs, fulfillment and wholeness.

Thursday, 2 January 2014

Into the wild

My dearies,

This shall have to be a quickie, i´m in a small town or "aldeia", as we say in Portugal near serra da estrela until sunday. It is simply breathtaking, the green fields with white fluffy sheep, the foggy mountains, the lonely stone houses.... It feels like i´m temporarily in a fairytale. And to be able to share it with my <3 and some close friends... It is simply heartwarming.

Have a picture, more to  come!

Or two!

And behold the amazingness that my batman jacket conveys! Mvahahah

Till soon darling creatures!